Do you know those memes that show social media versus reality? My meme included two soon-to-be dads and two moms of a twelve-year-old, one pregnant with twins through surrogacy. Imagine this picture of two families smiling, the grass is green and the sky is blue. On the other side is reality. A story that started as a perfect, heartwarming movie but quickly turned into a drama. A story of how the authorI learned to say "No" the hard way. A story sadly filled with drama, hurt, pain, and the challenging side of surrogacy. A story that is common, but untold. Surrogacy is supposed to be a great experience where one party is able to provide another with a family. When ChristelI agreed to become a surrogate, sheI believed sheI was strong, healthy, and in a good mental place. Never in a million years did Christel I never anticipated the challenges she would face, nor could and she couldn't fathom the long term repercussions. what it would feel like to go through those experiences. Little did I know, that Ththe The pain sheI would face after giving birth would be unimaginable. As the baby lay on hermy stomach in a crowded room, sheI realized sheI was no longer the same person. In that moment, everything changed. Contained in these pages is the author's personal experience of the trauma she experienced through surrogacy and how she was able to heal by sharing her story, detail by detail.