Seven years and more than 1,000 dates who turned into friends, enemies, girlfriends, adversaries, and allies. Christopher Gutierrez journeys through the crushing breakdown that initiated a disturbing spiral of online dating, the ugly corners of an abused heart desperate for answers, and the slow crawl back to a healthy life. His story is heartbreaking, ugly, illuminating, tragic, genuine, and undeniably compelling. Readers will keep a safe distance from the emotional car crash that’s so appalling and sincere, it’s impossible to look away. Fascinating and objectionable, Gutierrez details a twisted and relatable story of redemption. Spanning three books and 90 stories, the compilation is a pilgrimage into the depths of sexuality, an expedition to understand healthy behaviors, and a long arduous march ending at loving what we see in the mirror. 300 pages, 92 stories – compiling all of 4 AM Friends, The Direction Of Home, and 20 more unpublished stories. Includes new introductions, editing, and stories deemed “too scandalous” to previously release.