I know I deserve better, but I can't stop thinking about him. I've spent so many months alone. Being with him makes me feel good about myself. After all that happened, I should be running far away from Mr. Montero, but for some reason I can't help but cling to him. Yes, I have my issues, my flaws. I'm only human. And he's just a man. A man I've just so happened to fall for. A man full of lies and way too many secrets. A man I shouldn't even have in my life, but instead I'm sticking around. Why? Because, as I've said before, I'm not okay. I have issues I'm not sane. I can be so foolish at times. I like my time spent with him. But how long will this last? With each day, it gets more and more difficult. It gets harder to be around a man who isn't willing to tell me the truth. One day I know I'll deserve more. I know I'll deserve better. And, who knows? Maybe that day will be sooner rather than later.