What the fuck am I doing? My head felt like it was spinning and I laid out on my bed, letting the tears just fall from my face. I feel so gross, I almost can't stand it. Why do I only love myself when I'm with you? I only feel beautiful if you says so...Why do I crave to hear those words come from your mouth? What's wrong with me? I hate this. I hate myself. Where are you? I need you here... ~ For the love of god, read the tags and don't skip the first "xxx" chapter. THANK YOU. Enjoy annnnnd Seth out :)