Have you ever wondered if things could be different? What would your life be like if you chose a different path? Would everything still be your fault? Would he still hate you? Would it be better or worse? Would he love you then? My name is Brooke Ellis. I’ve spent the last five years asking myself these questions as I try to survive my marriage. Some things don’t change, and some people don’t want to. Sometimes the only answer is to disappear.

Ever have a dream that’s so vivid you believe that it’s real? All the things you’ve wanted are in your grasp. You’re happy and free. You believe that you’ve finally made it, and then you wake up. The nightmare you know as your life is back. No one understands what you’re going through, and no one believes the things you tell them. He has them all fooled. He’s convinced them he’s perfect. He tells them he loves you, and they believe the lies. How much must you endure before they see? How far can you bend before you break? How long must the nightmare last before you escape?