Adrenaline junky at my best, addict at my worst, but the best drug that’s never left my veins, will always be her. Nick Colorado, where I left it all, my family, friends, and Neha. I became a ghost and disappeared to a place no one would find me, Oceanside, CA. I thought running away to the coast after the worst crash of my skateboarding career would be what I needed to get clean from the addict I’ve become. The ocean called to me, and I knew it would help me heal, but it got so much worse, before I got better. Four years clean and six years later, what I want has never been more clear. Get back into the competition circuit, go back to the place I called home, and if I’m lucky, win back the only girl I’ve ever loved, if she’ll have me. I can’t find him, yet wherever I look he’s there with me, a part of us together forever, he needs to know how that changes everything. Neha I’m a lucky woman. With a great career, the best of friends, and in my opinion, the best kid in the world, what more could anyone ask for? There isn’t even a shortage of interested men. Yet, I’m still broken because of him. Nick, the only man I’ve ever loved and saw a future with. It’s been six years since he left without a trace. No social media, no online presence, it’s like he never existed. Then on my birthday I received an unexpected gift, with a handwritten note, and suddenly I am overwhelmed with familiar emotions. 18+ Open Door Scenes Trigger Warnings -Drug Use - Willing and Forceful - Death - Sexual Assault against MMC Tailslide i sbook 3 of the Drop-In Series. Though recommended to read all books in order to have a good idea of all characters and relationships, it can be read as a stand alone.