As a responsible twenty-six-year-old mother and wife, no one would ever guess that I am also the birth mother to two little girls who were separated from my custody when I was just eighteen. I have made the choice to reflect back on the decisions that led to the tragic consequences that I was forced to endure, and helplessly witness my small children endure, as we were torn apart forever; in only six months. Any foster/adoptive parent will be intrigued to know what can be happening on the other end of the spectrum, and gain a better insight as to what the birth-mother and children can be emotionally facing. The constant fantasies of living on her own terms leads a fifteen-year-old girl to embark on a thoroughly plotted journey to become pregnant. She obsessively studies fertility more than doing her homework. She charts her monthly cycles and tracks her most fertile days on a log kept secretly hidden under her bed. After months of actively trying to conceive, she and her naïve nineteen-year-old boyfriend struggle through events that will shake their world, and shatter their over-confident assumptions of reality. From a giddy girl with a fantasy, to a pregnant fifteen-year-old struggling to reverse her backfiring plot, this memoir is an invitation into the common thought patterns which are shaping the future for many young girls today. By making the conscious decision to become pregnant, Elizabeth Jeter altered her life in ways that she never could have imagined. She inadvertently introduced herself into a world of ill-intended criminals and quickly plummeted into their dark world, forgetting her values and nearly completely losing her identity for the next four years. This book will capture the attention of anyone who are interested or have had experience with the following; Adoption, Fostering, teens, parents of troubled teens, troubled teenagers, foster care workers, children in the foster system, those with substance abuse, alcoholism, domestic abuse, domestic violence, child abuse, social workers, public defenders, teachers, educators, public health workers, community volunteers, books on teenage pregnancy, books on adoption, books on foster care, books on ambiguous loss, books on grief, books on substance abuse, books on post-traumatic stress disorder, books on PTSD, books on stockholm syndrome, books on anxiety, books on depression, books on adolescence, books on keeping your kids safe, books on premarital sex, books on teen romance, womens studies, ebooks