I'm always in control. I cross every "T" and dot every "i". But I'm tired of never being able to relax my guard and to just be. Even as a child, I was more of a Mom than my mother was, always keeping things in order. It felt like without me, the sky would fall. I'm tired of holding up the sky. I want to breathe. I want to give someone else the reins and follow his lead. Sir has me for the weekend. And I'll be experiencing things that only existed in my wildest imagination. I'll be his kitten and he'll be my guide to the forbidden edges of my nature. I'm ready to enter the dark circus.