Jacob I wake up not knowing where I am, but quickly find out I'm in hell. No, not actual hell, but it may as well be. I'm greeted by Master Elder who tells me my life has just changed for the absolute worse. I'm part of The Order now. No, not an initiate, but something way worse. I'm a tool for the Elders. I have to do what they say. Kill who they want. Or I'll be the one on the chopping block. When I'm given an impossible task, I'm faced with the choice of life or love. With such an impossible decision, what will I choose? Wyatt I wake up to find Jacob is missing. I don't know what happened or how I got here, but I worry Jacob has disappeared just like Thomas did. Have I lost the two people I care about the most, or is something far more sinister going on? I thought I was the Queen but maybe I'm just another pawn. Trigger Warnings: Dubcon/Noncon, MFMMM reverse harem/why choose (no sword crossing of main love interests), SA, gender switch trope, bullying, physical violence, allusions to murder/death, cult rituals, drugs & alcohol, abuse, mentions of rape, choking (sexual and otherwise), graphic sexual acts, paid sex, sexual identity shaming, forced exhibitionism, bad boys & terrible men. Please note this book is rather light in comparison to the books that will follow.