Is this what my life has become… Selling novelty items to couples… I walked away from it all - the job, and the guy because he thought I was a stripper… The problem, I still want the guy, and I still blush at the word penis. Not as much, but the heat still rises when I stop to think about what I’m saying. Yes, this is my new life and I have to find the confidence to live it like I own it. I knew allowing her to walk away that night was a mistake… Now I have to find a way to show that I truly care about her, and maybe then she’ll understand that I can’t live my life without her. The problem is she only wants to be friends, if that’s the only way I get her then it’ll have to be enough.