Cruel Water I’m not a sadist by choice, I’m a sadist by design, Cursed to inflict pain on others And yet I find no pleasure in it, Only a moment of release from my eternal torment. And yet, it’s not enough I’m not a sadist, I’m a monster. One night changed all that, One night she dragged me from the oceans dark depths Cresting the cruel waters she came to my rescue, like an angel. A mermaid. And now I’m going crazy and don’t know what to believe. Was she real? Did she truly soothe my demons and take away my pain? How am I even alive? So many questions taunt me. So many answer evade my grasp. What is true? What is real? What to believe? All I know for sure is I have to find her again, I have to know, Can she really save me from myself?