Ever experienced darkness? Inside and out? I have lived in this darkness for a long time feeling like I wake up in a cave and have been living there for years. But even in this dark life I still find whatever ray of light I can get. To see myself. To show everyone who I am. This is what I thought I would be doing when I got the chance to participate in a dance performance in London. To go and live my dream. But what I didn't know is that my life was about to change. By him. Herold. I know I should have stayed away from him. Everyone warned me and so did he. But there was something about him that made me want to be with him. We both had our own secrets. We both shared them. But I never should have fallen in love with him. I never should have made such mistake. He came into my life being more than just a ray of light. He made me see the world through his eyes. But I was a fool to even think I could have a normal life with him. Because at the end, he did what he promised he would do if I stayed. He promised to destroy me. And now...I am destroyed by him.

When you see a ray of light in darkness, not only does it gives you hope but it also shows a ray of new life. But what if that very small ray is another path to darkness? Herold was the light in my dark life, but after losing him I'm engulfed by darkness all over again. His death destroyed me. I left all my dreams, my friends and my life for him. No matter how hard I tried to move on he still lived in my memories. But meeting Alex was something I never expected. He came as a tenant in my house but yet whenever I was with him I felt this familiar pull towards him. It was like I have known him for a long time. But things took great turns between us. He made me laugh. He made me alive. He even made me fall in love again. But not everything lasts forever. Soon all these happiness wrecked my life like a hurricane when truth came into light. I was destroyed again when reality hit me. Everything that I have been through, everything I have felt...it was all a lie. I lost belief in love and trust. But what do you do when you have become so connected with the darkness that the ray of light you always looked for now scares you? When this very light endangers everyone you love? I should have never walked through this path of dark love knowing I will be destroyed again. But at the end somehow this dark love freed me.