A freshman in chaos The perfect fratboy Paddles Hudson- I came to college and moved in with my boyfriend, Rob. It’s not been right for a while and everyone told me that it was a bad idea, but I felt like I owed him a chance to make it work. The biggest problem is that I was a legacy and joined a fraternity. The same one that dropped Rob last year. Now he’s angry and taking it out on me. I’m so ready to move on, but don’t know how. Then there’s the bro-crush I have on my frat big brother, Jax. He's about as hot as a frat boy can be, but I’m sure he’s straight. I could stare at him for hours, and for some reason he seems to really like me. Until I can be honest with Rob nothing matters anyway. Growing up is not for the faint of heart. Jax - Watching someone go through the same thing you did your freshman year is trauma inducing. What’s worse is its my little brother in the frat, and I have a major crush on him. Pledging a frat and keeping on top of your classes is exhausting and time consuming. When you don’t have that support from the person who’s supposed to love you, it’s excruciating. How can I help him or give him advice for what he’s going through when I want him for my own? Hudson has to make his own decisions, and when he does – I’ll be waiting. Why did I have to fall for a freshman? When can I tell him that he's mine? A greatly expanded version of the YBBB short story, The Frat Boy. Triggers- emotional abuse/physical abuse/emotional cheating/a slowly dying relationship/spanking and frat pledging.