My life looks perfect to everyone else, but I'm hiding my filthiest desires. My kitchen is spotless, my outfits coordinated, my marriage picture-perfect. But beneath this curated exterior, I'm suffocating—especially in the bedroom. When my friend suggests a freeuse resort, something inside me cracks. A place where I can be used without concern for how I look? Where men can take me however they want and cover me in their delight? It's time to find freedom in being messy, disheveled and utterly used while my husband watches me transform.