I broke my sobriety last night. I thought for sure that Matthias was going to leave me. I seem to ruin everything just by existing. I need him like the air I breathe. Matthias calms my demons with a simple touch of his hand, and the soothing way he speaks to me and tells me he loves me. I couldn't imagine my life without him. I might be borderline obsessed with the man, but you would be too if you were in my shoes. Yet, here he is; my Matthias. Holding me, saving me, and telling me he loves me like I didn't just ruin everything all over again. I need to make an honest man out of him once and for all. He puts up with so much of my nonsense. Without him I probably wouldn't be alive right now. Say yes, babe. Marry me. Here, today, right now. I don't need a big fancy wedding with our friends or family. I only need YOU. The man who makes my life worth living. The boy with the hazel eyes that loved me from afar until that fateful night. I finally gave into my own urges and kissed you and it changed everything... My ride or die. My forever love. Be my husband, make me the happiest man in the universe. *This book contains dark themes that might be triggering. It contains self-harm, drug and alcohol abuse, mental health issues. Please read at your own risk. This is a love story first and always between two troubled boys who found one another when they needed it most.*