Life is beyond our control. It can bring joy, laughter and happiness, then turn around and rip your heart out of your chest without warning. Abel Matheson received a cold dose of life’s reality six months ago when the man he loved most lost his fight against cancer. Free-spirited, easy-going Abel doesn’t know how to cope with the rotting, festering grief growing inside him. What was once an easy life, has become a struggle to put one foot in front of the other. His grades are slipping, his job is suffering, money is tight, and the nightmares plaguing his sleep are relentless. Something has to give. He can’t keep going like this. Desperate to end his suffering, Abel falls back on old habits. Self-destructive habits he knows are wrong. Every time he tries to stand, he ends up face-first in the mud. On the advice of a counselor, Abel makes attempts to find a support system to help him handle his grief. Unexpectedly, during his quest toward healing, Abel makes a connection with the most unlikely of people. His mind wants to rebel against the man who stands before him. Run far and fast in the other direction. But his heart forms a bond that annihilates his fear. Why this man of all people? Sometimes you find help and love where you least expect it. This book has been written as a follow-up to No Regrets. TRIGGER WARNING- self-harm, substance abuse, grief and loss, anxiety, depression