I’ve been in love with Charlie Fortier since we were seven years old and she punched me in the face for pulling on her pigtails. She was the girl next door. I was the punk ass kid who got in trouble. She told me she loved me when she was seventeen. I broke her heart instead. Then I left. And my band became one of the biggest in the world. She was always around. On the sidelines. Being my friend. And I’ve spent the last twelve years in love with her. She just doesn’t know. But I can’t tell her. Because I can’t be with her. I made too many deals to keep her safe. I owe too many debts for those same reasons. Now I'm back home. And she is everywhere. Staying away is too hard. But the truth is harder. I have scars on my black heart and they all belong to her. \\\*TW: This book does contain darker themes and not meant for sensitive readers.

My entire life I’ve felt like I’ve been paying a penance. I never thought I deserved this. A rockstar in one of the biggest bands in the world. My life consisted of parties and women until one thing changed everything. I was going to be a dad. I never wanted a family. I was fine on my own. Until her. Until I couldn’t get enough. Until she was the one thing always on my mind. She is changing the way I think. Giving me a new outlook on life. One I can almost taste. But things can change in the blink of an eye. And promises made can turn cruel. I should have known I’d never get a happy ending.

I’ve always been good about keeping my eyes away from my best friend’s sister. But it gets harder every day now that she’s on tour with us. A brush of a hand. A laugh that reaches her eyes. I can’t have her and for some reason that makes me want her more. We can keep it a secret. The late nights. The stolen kisses. But someone is threatening her. And all my secrets will come to light if I step in and stop it. She thinks I’m her knight in shining armor. But I’m the villain in this story.

I’m the life of the party. A rockstar with a charming smile. No one would ever know about the secrets I hide. And I never intend to let them out. Then Lake enters my life like a wrecking ball. It was supposed to be a fling. Something to make the days go by while on tour. But my heart has different intentions. Until everything is ruined by her wicked lies. I thought she was gone. But when she returns, all our truths come to fruition. And the lies between her and I may just ruin us.