There are images seared into my brain that no shrink will ever be able to get rid of. I have nightmares that I can’t hide from, that no amount of alcohol will eradicate. The love of my life, sits by watching me self-destruct and I know it’s hurting her, hurting us because I don’t know how to help myself. Returning from Afghanistan was supposed to be a new beginning for Kelsey and I, but I was wrong. I’m drowning in a sea of horrors, spiraling into a hole of nothingness and as much I hate to admit it, I’m lost. I need help, I know this but the question remains… How can anyone help me if I can’t seem to help myself?