\\\\\This book contains scenes of a sexual nature. Genre: Erotica\\\\\ Male escort. That got your attention. Some of the most powerful and well known women in the country pay to have sex with me, some of them married. Some are into more than just straight sex, which is why they call me. Bondage, power play, submission…nothing is off the table. I will do anything for the right price. The stories I could tell you about a certain high profile congresswoman, or that innocent blonde actress. Trust me, she’s not so innocent. Guys would kill for my job. I’m living the fucking dream. Meaningless sex, no relationship hang-ups and I’m rolling in the dough. Life is perfect, just the way it is. Until I meet her. She changes everything. She makes me want more than I’ve ever wanted for myself and she believes in me. But she also thinks I sell insurance. I can’t stop what I do, but I can’t give her up. Eventually, my two worlds are going to collide and when they do, shit will hit the fan.

When you're a twenty-year-old triple platinum singer you get an image. Except mine was all wrong. On drugs; pregnant; fucking my manager… they were the kind of lies I'd wake up to every day. But they didn’t know me. Nobody does. People see what they want to see, and think what they want to think. I was a good girl. I played by the rules, kept to myself and it got me nowhere. I spent the last year in love with a guy who I was paying to fuck me. A guy who fell in love with someone else. One minute he was my life and then he wasn’t. I’ve experienced it all my life. People around until they got what they wanted. Being left on my own at age fifteen was the best thing that happened to me. Until I met Ivan. Trust nobody but yourself, because everyone hurts you in the end. That’s the lesson I’ve learned. I’m done caring, and I'll do whatever is necessary to get through this. No matter what the cost. Because at the end of the day, I am in this alone.

Our past defines who we are. There are things from my past that I will do anything to keep hidden. Things that I know Beth wouldn't understand. How could she when I don't understand what happened myself? I blame myself everyday for the things I've done, and as I get closer to Beth I realize that maybe I'm not ready for this. Maybe I don't deserve her. Regardless, I know she can never find out. But if there was one thing I know better than anyone, it's that secrets don’t stay hidden for long. And sometimes when they break, they are scandalous.