Deacon They say forbidden fruit is the sweetest. Those people have obviously never tasted her kiss... When I was eight years old, I met my soul mate. Charlotte Kasen.Little sister to my best friend and the only girl I ever loved. Her family saved me from Hell on Earth when I was eleven. How did I repay her? I took her first kiss, then pushed her away for more than a decade. I made a vow to my best friend to keep my distance, a vow I’ve kept sacred—until now. But will she even give me a second chance when she thinks I never wanted one in the first place? I don’t know what I have to do to prove I'm the right man for the job, but she needs to understand one thing: Charlotte was mine from the moment I first laid eyes on her and she'll be mine to have. Forever. *************************** Charlotte I quit keeping track of all the tears I shed over Deacon Devereaux years ago, but my heart can’t seem to give him up. I’ve lived my life by the rules of others and have always denied what I wanted most: a handsome 6’4” package, all wrapped in muscle and regret. He thinks I can’t see all the secrets he keeps hidden. He believes we’re not meant to be together. He couldn’t be more wrong... I see every beautifully broken piece of him and I want them all—but at what cost? Now he’s back, saying things are different this time. Our past proves he's a runner, but should I ignore everything I know to be true now that he's running towards me? To Have is a brother's best friend, second chance romance, packed full of humor, heartache, and a heart-wrenching, hand-wringing HEA. Although this is a standalone, it is part of an interconnected world. The Vows Series will continue with To Hold in 2020. WARNING: To Have contains references to child abuse, domestic violence, and alcoholism. Readers sensitive to those topics need to consider this prior to reading.